Franklinstein

Its about 4 days before i leave and head to Philippines and yet I am still not done with my packing. I am really hoping for a fun-filled trip overseas as this is my first time going back there. Really miss most of my cousins and some of the fun places that we use to visit back then. I will post most of the trips pictures here once i have them ready. I even forgotten to spell 'once' and I almost spelled it as 'ones.

So its about 11 days to N level and my heart,soul and emotions are slowly being crushed away.. a feeling that was worst than before.. rumours spread from North to West like a plague of wildfire. Rumours that infect friends, family and people who love you the most. Emotions like a seamless pit full of regret, sadness and weakness, all pinning down on my about-to-be lifeless body. Friends are no longer negotiable and friendly.. people moving away from me like a driftwood drifting away from the shore. Close ones are no longer helping me.. i feel like im alone in a world full of strangers judgmental society.. my feelings slowly breaking away.. did i not ask for thy forgiveness? Did i not suffer enough for them to realise that im not evil? Will the rumours change their views of me? No one is out there for me now.. I just realised the pain that we have to succumb in order to please others as they might go against us.. if only one understands that we are slowly being crushed on the inside. If only one could see that great pain behind our fake smiles.. if only one.. just ONE.. could help us and releave our pain by showing others that we are not that bad and that we are deserving to have another chance... just another chance.. is what we need to be happy. ~ F. Rajoo