Franklinstein

The past few days has been easy going and there's nothing really interesting that happened (from what I can remember). I also can't escape from a new addiction that seems to be taking over my brain and that is, the show called "2 Broke Girls". I'm just addicted to that show because it's just so funny but the level of comedy is M17? Since its between N16 and M18. The actors are usually quite open with their act and by "open", I mean they use harsh and sexual remarks and turn it into comedic skits. Yea.. I've watched that show non stop for the past few days till the crazy server stopped loading the videos. Hopefully the moderators will do something about it.

Another thing that I've not experienced for a really long time is standing in front of the class and embarrassing myself. For those who do not know, I always crack under pressure and.. I can do maths! Just that I have to do it my way and not the teachers way. So yeah, as usual, I cracked under pressure and made an equation on the board seem impossible to solve. 

I know I'm misunderstood by many people since I was a kid. I tried explaining a lot of times to others that what I say sometimes is not really what I really meant. I can't go about life having to explain to people what I really am feeling or my thoughts if they happen to misunderstand me. Sometimes, my classmates/friends will think that I hate them but I don't. It's just that my expressions shows like it but I actually don't hate them. Sometimes even the simplest "Hi" or a simple conversation will already enlighten my day even though it's not that munch but I feel quite stupid if I want others to say "hi" to me.. I don't know but it's just weird. But, on the other hand, to some people it's easy for others to understand them but I don't know and what I am doing wrong.

Sometimes I ask myself whether is this where I belong? Or do I belong somewhere else?

Everyone says that I'm quiet, shy or whatever but the truth is that I just don't want others to misunderstand me. I'm a really noisy/annoying person if you really get to know me that well. And it's also nice to see that this generation is not like the previous ones where hating/bullying/fighting was more common. I'm still waiting for the day where I won't have to sleep at night while thinking about what happened today and whether I did something wrong and I'm waiting for the day where I don't have to be nervous the following day.

After much observation too, I found that being too kind also has a negative impact in a way that people tend to treat you lower or use you for "something". Being too rude also has a negative impact in a way that you tend to push people away from you apwhich makes the situation worse. And as usual, balancing the negative and postive vibes is hard to do as we might often slide too much to the negative side or too much to the positive side which happens to me quite a lot. 

I still believe that now is just a portion of my life and I have many more years to go and there will be more people to meet and see. 

Today was a rather tough day as it is Monday and not only that, there's also a lot of squeezing through in school canteen. To those who are wondering why I have to squeeze through during lunch break is because today is the freshman day (or the first day of the first year students). But it was ok because I'm trying to brace myself on this coming April since there will be more students coming in the school. Another thing that made Monday's even more scarier than horror films is that our O level English results are gonna be realeased today too. We were like counting down the time to our results (which was released at 2pm earlier today) and it was hella scary. I was really expecting for at least a B3 or a C5 but didnt managed to get it but still, I am happy with my results. Hopefully everyone who took their O level results today got their desired results!

I am still feeling quite sad for some who did not make it to poly and for those who did not get their desired results, remember guys, we're still young and our future is still ahead of us! 

And as usual, it's the first day of school and I can't really focus on lessons and instead just played and chatted around the whole period. Another I'm concerned about is the fact that school starts at 8am and ends at 5. It's like boom, feels like Monday every day. But I'm not gonna blame anything or anyone, or even the timetable cuz I appreciate it and I just wanna accept the fact that I have to come to school at 8 and go home at 5, sadly..

Last but not least, my sad, sad, and really sad singing. I've been trying to improve ever since day one and I'm improving but there's a huge wall in front of me and that is my brothers. I can't focus on any music related stuff (like the guitar) when they are around because they will make noise and stare at you like you're an alien (cuz they have not seen a person singing live). Haish but still, I'm not gonna give up even though it sounds ahem..

This is a picture of me looking like a dog (was just bored) don't judge me.

There's really not much stuff do these last two days since school is already opening. I mean, imagine if you go out and have fun. After you come home you will still feel sad that holiday is ending so there's really not much difference. What I usually do during last two-three days of holiday is to stay at home and enjoy sleeping since I won't get enough sleep when school reopens. Also, as what every other kid does, do last minute homework or in short, procrastinate! But that also proves another problem. There's still this so called, "holiday wall" that blocks you from doing/focusing on any school related stuff. 

Another is that school will be full. As in all the food court or places to eat will be full when school reopens. We do have to go out most of the time because, yeah, the school canteens are full (all the time). Everyone also have to rush work and study really hard since its examination time in three more months and it's gonna be quite boring for the next three months *sigh*. 

So, to the people out there who are not yet in college, savor your time and appreciate it now because it's gonna get even more tougher the following school year!

Like I was reading just now and I can't remember a short sentence after a while and I think that it's because I'm not focused enough (I was watching tv while reading my textbook). I tried listening to piano music while reading textbook and guess what! It didn't work.. I tried taking down notes so that I will be able to remember what I've read and guess what! I ended up copying the exact same page on my textbook. I guess no matter what study "remedy" I tried, I still won't be able to study without focusing. 

It's quite sad that Christmas Day and New Year are already over. I wish I could have a more longer holiday like what I used to have when I was in secondary/high school where we are able to have two to three months of holiday and we also do not have to study anything because there are new stuff to learn the following year. But, as kids, we have no choice but to keep on studying because this is for our future and we can't do anything out there without diplomas or certificates and it's rare to be a dropout millionaire like Mark Zuckerberg (if I spelled correctly) and Bill Gates.

The amount of stuff I need to check.

I'm so bad at soldering

I'm writing about this crazy habit of mine regarding anime. I've spent most of my holidays watching anime, not my whole holiday but most of the days. I've been particularly addicted to this anime known as "Seven Deadly Sins". This anime is about some medieval age thingy, Seven people who were banished from the so called "Holy Knight" because of their since thus, forming the seven deadly sins. I'm quite frustrated that there are no new episodes this week and I was really looking forward to it since last week. Hopefully they put the new episode up by end of this week if not I don't know what I'm gonna do.

Here is the cover of the first "Seven Deadly Sins" manga (Photo courtesy by: Google Images)

Then there's this cartoon which is also loved by everyone (most probably) and it is "Adventure Time" ! I'm not sure why iTo just that there's this weird attachment I have towards this cartoon. It's nice how the cartoon mixes positive vibes and comedy together it just never fails to amaze me somehow. It usually airs on Cartoon Network but I usually watch it online since I don't have Cartoon Network channel, and I'm so addicted to it that I have to watch it every night before I sleep or when I am not doing anything or when I'm bored.

Here is a promotional banner of Adventure Time that I took from a random pop up advert.

Anime isn't really that bad. It's a form of art that needs to be appreciated!

The Internet and the Singaporean netizens has been boggled with a filipino guy who posted bad stuff online about Singaporeans, and what's worst is that he is in our own country! I was a foreigner before but I did not behave that way because I was thankful for the opportunities to study in this country and I love the people here in Singapore and the culture, and the food especially! I was like thinking, what in the name of hell was wrong with him? Singapore is giving him an opportunity to work with good pay and good boss/employer unlike other oversea countries. I've done abit of research and found out that he works at one of Singapore's most renowned hospital which is Tan Tock Seng Hospital as a nurse.. As a nurse! (If I'm not wrong).

He has also claimed that his Facebook account was hacked which I think is not really possible in this case. If his account was hacked, there should be some kind of proof that his account was hacked and not just some excuse but again, it could also be possible that his account was hacked. No one really knows. I'm not against anyone, just that it's disheartening and sad to see people who are not appreciating the opportunities and good life they are given. 

This is not the first time that this has happened. Many foreigners has also voiced out their anger towards Singaporeans online and this has to stop! You are in Singapore because you need good job/education, so stop complaining too much and just be happy!

Image taken from:

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/this-urban-jungle/filipino-guy-calls-sporeans-loosers-and-wants-to-take-their-women-jobs-and-evict

It looks normal but it's really sore.

In the afternoon, I was was supposed to do some homework but decided not too as I was too lazy, as usual. So what better thing to do than to go to Twitter and look at my timeline! For those who do not know, I have to constantly change my Twitter trend list to either worldwide trends, Philippines trends or USA trends because the ones I'm at is the Singapore trends and it's way filled with Korean trends almost every single day! It's like the whole trend list is filled with Kpop and almost not a single thing about Singapore! I'm not against that it's just that there should be some space for those who don't know what Kpop is or those who are not fans of Kpop and don't mistake me! I'm a big fan of Kpop especially Girls Generation and 2NE1.

Here is a double screenshot of Singapore Twitter trends taken from my phone and 1/2 of it is about stuff I don't know sadly.

With one more week left till school reopens, I'm really feeling super sick (as in homesick!) and I do not want to go to school but at the same time, I also want to go to school since it's so boring staying at home these past few days.

Everyone had a fun time celebrating the approach to 2015 last night and I was like.. Yeah, just slacking around. I'm not sure why I don't fell the "New Year vibes" anymore. It's starting to feel like it's just a normal day to me, oh no! I felt the same way with Christmas Day! Maybe it's because I'm facing some problems now? Or maybe I'm just too stressed? I'm really not sure. But I sure felt some kind of joy inside me bouncing, just that it's not that big enough. 

Today, well, I didn't really celebrate my birthday (as usual). I would usually have like meals with family during my birthday and have my mom cook spaghetti and cheese sticks but sadly, that did not happen today. Instead, it was postponed to Sunday! (I'm just looking forward to the spaghetti that's all). Recieving birthday wishes from friends and close relatives also enlightened me a lot today and that's really unexpected Cuz I usually won't recieve any greetings from non-family members before. Turning 18 really doesn't change anything much I guess. Just that you are able to do more stuff like, take a driving license and watch an M18 movie that's all, and it's quite interesting too!

Hope you guys had a fun New Year and enjoy your 2015 guys and let this year be an enjoyable one!

Here's me when I was 16 and now when I'm 18!