Franklinstein

I know I'm misunderstood by many people since I was a kid. I tried explaining a lot of times to others that what I say sometimes is not really what I really meant. I can't go about life having to explain to people what I really am feeling or my thoughts if they happen to misunderstand me. Sometimes, my classmates/friends will think that I hate them but I don't. It's just that my expressions shows like it but I actually don't hate them. Sometimes even the simplest "Hi" or a simple conversation will already enlighten my day even though it's not that munch but I feel quite stupid if I want others to say "hi" to me.. I don't know but it's just weird. But, on the other hand, to some people it's easy for others to understand them but I don't know and what I am doing wrong.

Sometimes I ask myself whether is this where I belong? Or do I belong somewhere else?

Everyone says that I'm quiet, shy or whatever but the truth is that I just don't want others to misunderstand me. I'm a really noisy/annoying person if you really get to know me that well. And it's also nice to see that this generation is not like the previous ones where hating/bullying/fighting was more common. I'm still waiting for the day where I won't have to sleep at night while thinking about what happened today and whether I did something wrong and I'm waiting for the day where I don't have to be nervous the following day.

After much observation too, I found that being too kind also has a negative impact in a way that people tend to treat you lower or use you for "something". Being too rude also has a negative impact in a way that you tend to push people away from you apwhich makes the situation worse. And as usual, balancing the negative and postive vibes is hard to do as we might often slide too much to the negative side or too much to the positive side which happens to me quite a lot. 

I still believe that now is just a portion of my life and I have many more years to go and there will be more people to meet and see.