So yes here I am again! After being able to survive a day and a half of having depression.
A scary and dark feeling indeed. But you know, even after all these stuff happening I'm still trying to stay strong and positive day by day because I'm not the only one fighting through this and I know that there are many more people out there and I'm gonna say that if you're one of them, you should keep holding on and do not let go because of you do, many people will be disappointed and sad.
I know that I'm an often misunderstood person and perhaps I'm sort of mysterious to some people and it's because I'm trying to cool down for a moment and not let stress take over.
Sorry for the short post
So yes here I am again! After being able to survive a day and a half of having depression.
A scary and dark feeling indeed. But you know, even after all these stuff happening I'm still trying to stay strong and positive day by day because I'm not the only one fighting through this and I know that there are many more people out there and I'm gonna say that if you're one of them, you should keep holding on and do not let go because of you do, many people will be disappointed and sad.
I know that I'm an often misunderstood person and perhaps I'm sort of mysterious to some people and it's because I'm trying to cool down for a moment and not let stress take over.
Sorry for the short post
Wazzup was up if anyone is still out there who still waits for my blog to update (if there are even viewers out there) well, I'm not sure if this is a good news but but but, I'm gonna be updating my blog from tomorrow onwards! I'm kinda busy with a lot of stuff right now but I'll make sure to remind myself to update this blog starting tomorrow.
Just a piece of pic from my new insta account
I'm also working on my photography Instagram @furankur1n . You can follow me there if you want to and I basically post my pics on that account.
So, I guess we'll see each other tomorrow then! Peace out.
Sometimes I turn on the computer and just wonder.. What has the world come into?
So today I'm gonna be talking about a famous dissing that has been going around the web for the past two days (I guess). It's about Wendy Williams (who I just found out recently) body shaming Ariana Grande. Now many of you might think that I'm on Ari's side but no! I'm not taking a side, I'm just sticking to what is right.
For those of you who do not know what exactly happened, I suggest you search and watch it on YouTube and you'll understand. Wendy called out to Ariana saying that no matter what she does, she will still be seen as a 12 year old girl to her eyes (pardon me if it's wrong) and that she will not be seen as a woman. Now tell me how messed up that sentence is. Wendy Williams being a person who is against body shaming and bullying but still does this to others. *sigh*
She even made a statement on her show that bullying is wrong but then, what is all this stuff she's doing?
Some people say that she's just jealous cuz Ariana is prettier and younger than her and it just makes me "lol" so hard.
And kudos to Ariana for not fighting her back on this topic!
Image courtesy by E!
Get up get up
Let me hear you say my name
Cuz you know I'm not that lame
Yea and you know I have a name
Let me tell you about a girl that I used to meet
She was hotter on Twitter than the one down the street
Yea she gave me presents, I gave her gifts
But what really matters is she does really lift!
She was bragging all about it, all night long and I wanted her to stop but I just can't get enough
Chorus:
Do you even lift?
Do do do do do you even lift?
Do you even lift?
Do do do do do you even lift?
Yeah I followed her to the gym the next day
My mind was telling me that, she was a slay
She carried the Dumbbells,
While I lift up the barbells.
(And never have I ever seen a lifting soul like hers.)
2nd Chorus:
Oh do you even lift
Do you even lift
(Yea I'm not gonna lie)
Do you even lift
Do do you even lift
(So come with me I'll show you what we both can be oh)
2nd singer: (non-rapper)
We're a match made in heaven
So please don't be leavin
I can give you all the love,
Yea The one that that fool can't
Cause you know,
Yeah you know,
That We've got one thing in common.
(Short pause)
Do you even lift?
Do do do do do you even lift?
Do you even lift?
Do do do do do you even lift?
Do you even lift?
Do do do do do you even lift?
Do you even lift?
Do do do do do you even lift?
I'm not really sure how to start this post but I'm gonna do it this way.
Lately I've been feeling stressed out for nothing and I don't really know why and I feel that everything around me is adding up to the effect. I still have 7 more weeks of internship to go and I'm just trying to hold on and stay strong.
I've tried my best to find out what causes this crazy amount of stress but I can't. Maybe it could be because of a few things? Like waking up early in the morning, people pushing each other in the mrt and going home super late at night but that's ok because it's all for the GPA. Yea, the lengths we go to to get a good grade. Somehow I just wanna be by myself for this month of July and try to set myself to a so called "correct" state of mind and soul to get rid of this depression.
If your wondering, I'm actually feeling depressed and the reason why I just say I'm stressed is because a lot of people go crazy over the word depressed and most might even think that depressed=suicide which is actually not!
This is not the past and I've gotten over all those so called "worst" stuff that happened back then.
So, in short, talking to someone does not necessarily help with your stress/depression.
To everyone (if there's anyone) who reads this blog, I'm sorry if I've not updated for a really long time. I was just busy with school stuff and now, I'm having internship.
So what's up everyone! I'm here to talk about my internship and it will be useful (I think) for those who are also going for their internship soon.
During the first day of my internship, I did not feel nervous because I think after hundreds of presentation I've done last year and this year, I've become numb to the feeling. I think. In fact, you shouldn't even feel nervous about it cuz if you do, then how are gonna survive out in the working world?
First day went well, second day too, the third day not really.
The first few days were ok, had some work to do here and there and not really boring till we reach Day 3 where we ran out of stuff to do but as usual, we asked for more things to do. Just a note if you're not doing anything for a while time will be a bitch and run slower. I was trying to keep my phone from dying during the first week cuz I did not know wether I was allowed to charge or not and I was thinking like, what if they found me charging? Will they cut my salary to pay for the electricity bill?
Thank goodness that did not happen!
The place I am attached to currently is nice and does not give too much stress vibe. There is a shower room and a Kitchen, there is no specific clothing so basically you can just wear anything! Just that you have to wear long pants. But there's just something bothering me to this day. It's been jumping up and down in my mind since Week 1...
Remember when I told that this place has kitchen? (On the top paragraph). Well, among all of the staff, I only see two of the staff using the kitchen and the rest are not! The two staff are the same ones who use the kitchen everyday. Not blaming anyone just wondering why.
So now It's Week 2 and I'll probably be on-site starting next week so I guess no more office work for me (yay!). But still, there's 8 more weeks to go!